Are your lips moving? Are they moving in the right direction?
-- Rei, from a conversation at work
::: Tower View :::
Colour Blind
From Paul Goldin Research
Everyone feels despondent at times and you are no exception. You are feeling so depressed because it seems that everything that could go wrong has gone wrong and you don't quite know which way to turn. So like the proverbial ostrich you are trying to bury your head in the sand. But that won't work - you have to face reality.
You are lazy - you dream of a peaceful, calm, uncluttered and uncomplicated life. Your ideal would be to share a permanent base with some person or persons who would be able to demonstrate on-going love, peace and security.
Nothing seems to be going right for you and you are thwarted every way you turn. You are not at all happy with the situation but it would appear that there is very little that you can do about it at this time. Sit back and let the situation take its course, because at this time you feel that there is nothing you can do to change whatever needs to be changed.
Recent disappointment has led you to become truly introverted. You are becoming suspicious of everybody and consequently you now feel that you are unable to trust anybody. Unfortunately it would appear that you are curbing your natural enthusiasm and imaginative nature - perhaps this is because you are fearful that you may become over enthused and find that you could possibly be carried away by wishful thinking. You are keeping your distance to see whether attitudes towards you are sincere - but this watchfulness could easily develop into suspicion and distrust.
Perhaps in the distant past your trust and belief in your fellow man was misplaced and you can now no longer accept anything as it appears to be. You are untrusting and you insist that before you commit yourself to anything, you examine the pro's and con's with critical discrimination. The situation has now progressed to one where you are apt to disagree yet not make any form of constructive criticism to every suggestion that may be put to you. As a result you are in limbo. There is a saying that goes 'The past does not equal tomorrow'. Think about it - and let go.
Well.. damn...
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::: Background Noise :::
Broken by Seether and Amy Lee
Because I'm broken
When I'm open
And I don't feel like
I am strong enough...
Because I'm broken
When I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right
when you're gone away...
You've gone away...
You dont feel me here anymore...
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* But I'm a creep
* I'm a weirdo
* What the hell am I doing here?
* I dont belong here
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It just tastes so good in my mouth. Yummo!
-- Racheal Ray
::: Tower View :::
Here I Go Again
Yes, its been awhile again. I let the blog go for so long that it seems almost senseless.
But we all need that time off for one reason or another. I figured after having put up with my poor writing skills and extremely long story, that the poor folks who actually read this might want some time off.
Ok, so I admit it. I have been a lazy sod. After putting in an average of 45 to 50 hours a week at the office as well as training with the KBT cycling team, its been amazing that I get enough sleep on a regular basis.
Speaking of cycling the highlight of the past weekends has been the diabetes charity ride. It was 124 miles of pure pleasure.
That is if you didnt count all the hills, bridges, high winds, high heat, and bad traffic, it really was a good ride.
Going over a two day period, this was an early test to determine the endurance level for the large ride that comes soon: the MS150.
Based on how well I did for this ride I can honestly say I am in big frigging trouble. Thank God for large pace lines. 
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::: Out In The Yard :::
After 10 years, Dante and Randel have moved on.. sort of. I'm not even supposed to be here today! (hat tip: Fury)
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Armstrong cleared of doping charges. Now this gives something else for the French to whine about.
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::: Background Noise :::
Rio by Duran Duran
Her name is Rio
And she dances on the sand
Just like that river
Twisting through a dusty land
And when she shines
she really shows you all she can
Oh Rio, Rio
Dance across the Rio Grande
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* But I'm a creep
* I'm a weirdo
* What the hell am I doing here?
* I dont belong here
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The Steward
