Castle Shima

Alyssa: Looks like a very personal story.
Holden: I finally had something personal to say.
-- from Chasing Amy

Finally, a new entry. I haven't kept up with the blog as much as I really wanted. Then again, I really haven't had much to say.

I mean life has been hectic and it just felt as things were so out of control. It has been such a maddening pace. The end of year is alway crazy, especially with the office, but this year it was just beyond belief.

I was even accused of being a hermit. Again. But I've always been a hermit I suppose. I cause less damage that way.

Then after awhile, it dawned on me that one of the reasons I didn't write anything after all this time was the fact that I didn't have anything to say. I mean if you really want to hear the doldrums of work, I've got plenty of stories there, but it's not the same thing. It simply wasn't... meaningful...

So why now? Why bother? I'm absolutely rubbish when it comes to even attempting to be serious for a moment.

Its the end of the year. Time to look back and then look forward. To change things in your life and in the lives of others. There is always so much promise at new year's and the hope that things will be different. I guess that is the purpose of the new year's resolution.

But I don't do resolutions. I make vain attempts at being somewhat a better person. And even then, that isn't quite the right thing either.

I was once told that I'm way too nice; too kind. Perhaps that is true. It's felt like that as of late.

So that will be my vain attempt I think. To be abit more unkind and not so nice. Maybe even do anger abit more because I really can do that well. I'm really good at anger.

I have absolutely no idea if this will really make me a better person. We'll see how it goes especially since its rare for people to keep their resolutions anyway. Or in this case, their vain attempt.

Will I keep mine? Will you?

The moment is upon us. It's coming.

Are you ready?

Closer To The Edge by 30 Seconds To Mars

The soul is born old but grows young. That is the comedy of life. And the body is born young and grows old. That is life's tragedy.
-- Oscar Wilde

Time flies doesn't it? I hadn't even realized how long it had been since I've updated the blog. Hell, I barely recall what I did at the beginning of the year and its already December.

Things have gone by so fast it seems so unreal. The next thing you know I will start playing soccer and act like I'm 20 again.

Ok, that is a given. Perhaps its more to the fact that I refuse to grow up. I'm still a big kid, but with expensive toys and the wierd family. Just like John Leguizamo...



Ok, maybe my family isn't *that* wierd. Or maybe they are and I just don't see it.