Castle Shima

Jill: Try to remember that this room is full of complete mothers.
Jane: I dont think thats true. Everyone seems very nice.
-- from Coupling

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Soon To Be Mom
I hope everyone had a good Mother's Day. For some odd reason, Mother's Day tends to remind me of the tv show Coupling. Its still a great show.



Seems ironic since the series ended when the baby is born. Good thing it came out on DVD and still being shown on BBC America.
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I'm not expecting to
Grow flowers in the desert,
But I can live and breathe
And see the sun in wintertime.
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Vanessa: How do I look?
Brenda: Like a new mom; scared shitless.
-- from Juno

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Big Puffy Versions
I know I hadnt written in awhile, but things have been hectic as of late. I would start an entry and then something would come up and get in the way. So I'm going the easy route and doing a random meme.

1. First and foremost: Congratulations go out to the Starfury clan on the addition of their wee princess to the family. She's a cutie!

2. Prayers go out to Elden, aka The Fat Cyclist, whose wife, Susan, is having a serious bout with cancer. A famous cancer survivor sent more inspiring words than I ever could.

3. Speaking of family additions, I've had an addition to mine. Not as spectacular as the Fury clan though. I broke down and got a second vehicle; a 2008 Honda Accord. In black, of course.



4. Congrats must also go out to Brent and Jade! Story and art well done, Scott.

5. Juno really was great movie.

6. As funny as this sounds, Alvin and The Chipmunks was alot of fun too. Yes, I have eclectic taste in movies.

7. Gummy bears taste so good that they are evil.

8. Haagen Dazs Cookies and Cream has become a late night treat. There is something about eating a spoonful of ice cream right out of the container.

9. Another late night treat has been Family Guy. Irreverant and unapologetic, it definately fits my sense of humour.

10. Which leads into the seque for those parental types.

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I'm not expecting to
Grow flowers in the desert,
But I can live and breathe
And see the sun in wintertime.
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For those who believe, no proof is necessary. For those who don't believe, no proof is possible.
-- Stuart Chase

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Just So You Know Now

Believe Me by Fort Minor

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Despite all my rage
I am still just a rat in a cage.
Then someone will say
what is lost can never be saved.
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Never try to teach a pig to sing; it wastes your time and it annoys the pig.
-- Robert Heinlein

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Its All In The Lips
Today was Office Cube day or something to that effect. Now I wouldnt mind a cube in this place. It would one hell of an IT shop to work at. This would be an awesome team building too.


Lip Dub - Flagpole Sitta by Harvey Danger from amandalynferri on Vimeo.

Granted, my dept got to play flag football for its annual team building. Now that frigging rocked! We had a full compliment for offense, defense, and even cheerleaders.


Hat tip to Dan at Distant Early Warning.
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Despite all my rage
I am still just a rat in a cage.
Then someone will say
what is lost can never be saved.
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Experience is the name every one gives to their mistakes.
-- Oscar Wilde

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So Who Are You?
I've been playing Rock Band lately and been having an absolute blast. Its abit more complex than Guitar Hero, especially with the drum set and microphone for singing.

One of the reasons for even getting it was so I could play Learn To Fly by The Foo Fighters. It took awhile to get the guitar portion, but was worth the effort. I learned alot.

The downside is that I can download these songs to Guitar Hero 3. Damn...

The Pretender

All My Life


Ah well. Amazing how things work out.
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Despite all my rage
I am still just a rat in a cage.
Then someone will say
what is lost can never be saved.
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Roses are red, violets are blue. I'm schizophrenic, and so am I.
-- Oscar Levant

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Its The House Of Bloo
I didnt know much about Foster's Home For Imaginary Friends until a friend of mine asked me to look up the character, Bloo. I will have to admit that its a cute little bastard.



I'm blaming Belle for this.
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Despite all my rage
I am still just a rat in a cage.
Then someone will say
what is lost can never be saved.
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He's all right! Aren't you, cat? Poor cat! Poor slob! Poor slob without a name!
-- Holly from Breakfast At Tiffany's

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Oh Golly Gee Damn!

Breakfast At Tiffany's by Deep Blue Something


I always did like this song. It was original and I could actually sing it without killing too many people.
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Despite all my rage
I am still just a rat in a cage.
Then someone will say
what is lost can never be saved.
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He is quite a good fellow; nobody's enemy but his own.
-- from David Copperfield

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Its No Surprise To Me

My Own Worst Enemy by Lit

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Despite all my rage
I am still just a rat in a cage.
Then someone will say
what is lost can never be saved.
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If everyone really knew what a jerk I am in real life, I wouldn't be so adored in the slightest.
-- Christian Bale

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A Picture Worth A Thousand Words
Yeah, some days are just like this.


see more crazy cat pics
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The Other Thousand Words
I've saved up a few of these things and really didnt use them because of their size or somehow just didnt fit into the scheme of things. Its time I cleared out the folder, but I didnt want the words to be unsaid. Enjoy.

Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.
-- Christopher Robin in Winnie The Pooh

My feelings for you shame me into silence.
The truth of this and your name will never be revealed.
It is you who has made me realize the failure of my life.
The thought of you fills me with longing
And at the same time,
A burning humiliation
That produces scar tissue and dead brain cells.
Your existence mocks me and I am unable to confront this.
You have no idea of any of this.
None of this is your fault.
It is completely with me.
It is you who makes me see what I really am.
I am weak and out of touch with myself.
-- Henry Rollins

I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say.
I am afraid you don't want me to say anything.
So I don't.
But inside of me there are words waiting to come out.
And tell you how I feel.
Like how I miss you.
And how I love you despite my broken heart.
And how I need you in my life.
And especially how much I want you.
But those words may forver stay in my heart-locked inside.
Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too.
But I'll never know.
-- Anonymous

The best way to waste your life is by taking notes. The easiest way to avoid living is to just watch. Look for the details. Report. Don't participate.
-- Chuck Palahniuk

I loved you in the morning,
Our kisses deep and warm,
Your hair upon the pillow like a sleepy golden storm,
Yes, many loved before us, I know that we are not new,
In city and in forest they smiled like me and you,
but now it's come to distances and both of us must try,
Your eyes are soft with sorrow,
Hey, that's no way to say goodbye.
-- Leonard Cohen
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In time
Or so I'm told
I'm just another soul for sale.
Oh, well...
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Children show scars like medals. Lovers use them as secrets to reveal. A scar is what happens when the word is made flesh.
-- Leonard Cohen

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Bear The Scars

Its Been Awhile by Staind

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In time
Or so I'm told
I'm just another soul for sale.
Oh, well...
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Men and women belong to different species and communications between them is still in its infancy.
-- Bill Cosby

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Its The Way That You Talk
There are always jokes about how men and women talk to each other or in most cases, dont talk to each other. It really as if the genders are on two different wavelengths and cant seem to meet in the middle.

I found this story a long time ago and recently rediscovered it again. It pretty much sums up how the sexes define communication.

A man is driving his car around a mountain, going just over the speed limit.

A woman coming around the bend from the opposite direction, sticks her head out the window and yells at him "Pig!"

Irritated, the man sticks his head out the window. As the woman drives by, he yells "Bitch!"

As the man rounds the corner, the car crashes into a wild boar that was walking in his lane.

Aye, it was a wee bit lame, but you get the point.
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Communication by The Power Station

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In time
Or so I'm told
I'm just another soul for sale.
Oh, well...
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My grandfather taught me the energy of life goes in a circle in a perfect flow, balanced. He said until I find my center, my circle would never be whole.
-- Gabe from The One

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One To Nothing


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In time
Or so I'm told
I'm just another soul for sale.
Oh, well...
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Do all the good you can, by all the means you can, in all the ways you can, in all the places you can, at all the times you can, to all the people you can, as long as ever you can.
-- John Wesley

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Action Items

In Between by Linkin Park

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In time
Or so I'm told
I'm just another soul for sale.
Oh, well...
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If you think nobody cares if you're alive, try missing a couple of car payments.
-- Earl Wilson

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Disappearing Act

Where'd You Go by Fort Minor

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In time
Or so I'm told
I'm just another soul for sale.
Oh, well...
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You want be a Chinese, you got to eat the nasty stuff.
-- Chen from The Corruptor

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Eat This Before I Give It To An Animal
Growing up Asian, I had to eat some pretty strange stuff when compared to American food. What many folks call gross, I find normal.

This all leads up to a little gem I found on tv.

If you have the Travel Channel, I highly recommend the show Bizarre Foods with Andrew Zimmern. You may find the food disgusting but the show really is interesting.



Remember, we are practicing diversity one plate at a time.
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In time
Or so I'm told
I'm just another soul for sale.
Oh, well...
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In order to find his equal, an Irishman is forced to talk to God.
-- Stephen from Braveheart

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Erin Go Braugh
I was stuck on what I wanted to put for St. Patrick's Day. I really wanted to put Jump Around by House of Pain, but I couldnt find one where it was well done. Kind of disappointing.

So I settled on this. At least the view is good. Heh...


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In time
Or so I'm told
I'm just another soul for sale.
Oh, well...
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The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected.
-- from The Notebook by Nicholas sparks

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She Was A Happy Girl When She Left Me

Sour Girl by Stone Temple Pilots

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In time
Or so I'm told
I'm just another soul for sale.
Oh, well...
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Roper: Did you see the picture of that NY govenor's hooker? She is hot! I was trying to bring up her MySpace page, but it wouldnt come up.
Me: Sounds like a lot of people were hitting that thing.
Robbie: Yeah, that box must be taking a pounding.
-- from a conversation at work

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You Think Its Fictional

Clint Eastwood by Gorillaz

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In time
Or so I'm told
I'm just another soul for sale.
Oh, well...
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Caller: You're in this position because you're not telling the truth.
Stu: No, I'm in this fucking position because you have a gun!
-- from Phone Booth

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Can Humans Do What Prophets Say?

Standing Outside A Broken Phonebooth (With Money In My Hand)
by Primitive Radio Gods

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In time
Or so i'm told
I'm just another soul for sale.
Oh, well...
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Morgan: What's his story?
Cody: The story is you fuck with him and he'll seal your fate.
-- from Road House

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You Play Pretty Good For A Blind White Boy
When I read this article about Jeff Healey passing, a flood of past images came back.

There was a time when Angel Eyes was important. Not only because was it a favorite song, but it had a special meaning as well. It always made me remember a lifetime ago and how things could have been different.

Ah well. Deja vu.

When the band was in Road House, I was more into the music rather than the movie. Granted, it was still a decent film despite the lame script and bad acting.



Thanks for the memories, Jeff.
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In time
Or so i'm told
I'm just another soul for sale.
Oh, well...
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I'm not confused, I'm just well mixed.
-- Robert Frost

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That Was Easy
Someone recently made a comment to me about how I've put up alot of videos in the past couple of months.

While that is true, I will admit that music is one of my favorite discussions and the videos have been the only way to show it. I will also admit that I've been holding out mainly because I've become a lazy bastard when it comes to typing.

So here is one of the more interesting conversations that I had yesterday at the office.

Mittens: Oh my God! Thank you! I need to get you one of those Easy buttons!
Me: No problem. That button wont work on me though. I'm easy, but I'm not that easy.
Mittens: Oh really??
Me: Nevermind. We're still at work.

Neener, neener.
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In time
Or so i'm told
I'm just another soul for sale.
Oh, well...
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It is better to conquer yourself than to win a thousand battles. Then the victory is yours. It cannot be taken from you, not by angels or by demons, heaven or hell.
-- Buddha

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When Angels Deserve To Die
The original video was good, but I couldnt find one that looked clean enough. Thats when I found this great fan made vid.

Chop Suey! by System Of A Down

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If I die before I learn to speak
Can money pay for all the days
I lived awake
But half asleep?
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The pain of the mind is worse than the pain of the body.
-- Publilius Syrus

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Ow Ow Ow!


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If I die before I learn to speak
Can money pay for all the days
I lived awake
But half asleep?
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But you can't run away from home without destroying somone's world.
-- Anti-Helena from MirrorMask

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Et Maintenant Nous Sommes Tout Seuls

Protege Moi by Placebo

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If I die before I learn to speak
Can money pay for all the days
I lived awake
But half asleep?
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A dead man begs you to remember: a warrior's ultimate act is to lay down his sword.
-- Nameless from Hero

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How Swift The Sword
I always liked this song when I first heard it in Blade II, but combined with this video, the song is so much better.

I Against I by Mos Def

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If I die before I learn to speak
Can money pay for all the days
I lived awake
But half asleep?
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If confusion is the first step to knowledge, I must be a genius.
-- Larry Leissner

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Lassitude

Exhaustion (among other things)
by Joy Marsh
Today, nothing will be accomplished by me with
determined speech or concise fluid movements.

In others words and to say it simply,
I am tired, tired of the constant icy grip in my neck,
of expectations, of politics, words that instill fear and
confront.

I’ll listen to reason tomorrow. Today I’ll pray for everything I am not.

As I reconcile, fear and doubt mix with the baneful on the
news. It spews a warning shot, so close, so close.
I didn’t move. This is my holy ground.

The death chants that you hear over and over again finally evaporate
as the clear water comes to a boil on the stove.
Free of demands and apocalypse, I sip my tea, then wait for sleep..

Suspended over the room,
a whispered Amen.
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If I die before I learn to speak
Can money pay for all the days
I lived awake
But half asleep?
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How long a minute is depends on what side of the bathroom door you're on.
-- Anonymous

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Its Not The Smell That Gets You
This is abit long, but funny as hell. Just makes you think about the shit people have to put up with.


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If I die before I learn to speak
Can money pay for all the days
I lived awake
But half asleep?
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Home is not where you live, but where they understand you.
-- Christian Morganstern

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Nothing to Lose, Nothing to Gain

Somewhere I Belong by Linkin Park

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People say life is like a stream. They're right. Just a while ago I wanted to spit into the wind and I hit my own face.
-- Johan Cruijff

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Getting Kicked Around
This is why I play the sport.


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If I die before I learn to speak
Can money pay for all the days
I lived awake
But half asleep?
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The trouble with most people is that they think with their hopes or fears or wishes rather than with their minds.
-- Will Durant

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California Dreaming
The Tour of California started today. I had almost forgotten about it and was fortunate to catch a reminder last night. The TV coverage isnt as prestigeous as the Tour de France, but just as exhilarating.

This is going to be an exciting week. Well, at least for me.
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And Now For Something Completely Different

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If I die before I learn to speak
Can money pay for all the days
I lived awake
But half asleep?
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Why hate someone for the color of their skin when there are much better reasons to hate them.
-- Denis Leary

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I Have A Really Big Deck
I used to be an avid fan of the card game Magic The Gathering. I still have my collection and am debating about playing again. There are so many new cards and sets, even for Asian mythology, that it would almost like starting over again.

Damn. No wonder we used to call it Magic The Addiction and Paper Crack


Take the Magic: The Gathering 'What Color Are You?' Quiz.

Hm. I always thought I was abit more brown.
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If I die before I learn to speak
Can money pay for all the days
I lived awake
But half asleep?
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When angry, count four. When very angry, swear.
-- Mark Twain

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Scars Of Love
I should have used this yesterday, but I had forgotten all about it. What was I thinking? How could I forget Happy Tree Friends?!

Thats it. I'm getting old.

Carpal Tunnel of Love by Fall Out Boy

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If I die before I learn to speak
Can money pay for all the days
I lived awake
But half asleep?
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Seduce my mind and you can have my body. Find my soul and I'm yours forever.
-- Anonymous

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Poetry
I had so many quotes I wanted to use for today, I couldnt make up my mind. Then I realized, for all the quotes I had, they could make the entry itself. Especially when I found one that actually surprised me. Not because the quote was unique, but rather by who it was.

So here is a little poetry. Enjoy.

You don't love a woman because she's beautiful.
She is beautiful because you love her.
-- Anonymous

I'd like to run away from you,
But if you didn't come
And find me,
I would die.
-- Shirley Bassey

The greatest tragedy of life is not that men perish,
but that they cease to love.
-- by W. Somerset Maugham

To love a person is to learn the song
That is in their heart,
And to sing it to them
When they have forgotten.
-- Anonymous

To be in love is merely to be
In a state of perpetual anesthesia:
To mistake an ordinary young man for a Greek god
Or an ordinary young woman for a goddess.
-- H.L. Mencken

Love is like a friendship caught on fire.
In the beginning a flame, very pretty,
Often hot and fierce,
But still only light and flickering.
As love grows older,
Our hearts mature
And our love becomes as coals,
Deep-burning and unquenchable.
-- Bruce Lee


Hope you had a happy Valentine's Day.
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If I die before I learn to speak
Can money pay for all the days
I lived awake
But half asleep?
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The sudden disappointment of a hope leaves a scar which the ultimate fulfillment of that hope never entirely removes.
-- Thomas Hardy

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No, Yes, Maybe.


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If I die before I learn to speak
Can money pay for all the days
I lived awake
But half asleep?
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When a man has no reason to trust himself, he trusts in luck.
-- Ed Howe

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Mistrust Clever People


moar funny pictures
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If I die before I learn to speak
Can money pay for all the days
I lived awake
But half asleep?
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As is the generation of leaves, so is that of humanity. The wind scatters the leaves on the ground, but the live timber burgeons with leaves again in the season of spring returning. So one generation of men will grow while another dies.
-- from The Iliad by Homer

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I Wont Be Coming Home Tonight
This video was too awesome to pass up. Created and directed by Todd McFarlene of Spawn fame, it definately has his artistic touch to it.

Land Of Confusion by Disturbed

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If I die before I learn to speak
Can money pay for all the days
I lived awake
But half asleep?
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Where are my feelings? I feel nothing for anyone.
-- Muad'Dib from Dune

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When The Heart Is Cold

Stricken by Disturbed

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If I die before I learn to speak
Can money pay for all the days
I lived awake
But half asleep?
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But when we came out of camp, thats when I first realized that being in camp, that being Japanese-American, was something shameful.
-- George Takei

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Happy New Year
Its the Year of the Rat following the Chinese calendar. The Rat is linked to wealth, charm, and order, but also to death, war, and atrocities.

How ironic.

Kenji by Fort Minor

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If I die before I learn to speak
Can money pay for all the days
I lived awake
But half asleep?
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In a real dark night of the soul, it is always three o'clock in the morning, day after day.
-- F. Scott Fitzgerald

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I Have Hours

Behind Blue Eyes by Limp Bizkit

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If I die before I learn to speak
Can money pay for all the days
I lived awake
But half asleep?
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Football is like life. It requires perseverance, self-denial, hard work, sacrifice, dedication and respect for authority.
-- Vince Lombardi

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Game Over, Man! Game Over!
Super Bowl XLII: New York Giants beats the Patriots 17 - 14.

Sorry Tigress...


Ok, not really. LOL...

Guess those guys that published the book about the perfect season wont be making that many sales now.
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If I die before I learn to speak
Can money pay for all the days
I lived awake
But half asleep?
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I sing because I have nothing better to do with my breath
-- Anonymous

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Every Car You Chase
Here is another remix by DJ PartyBen. Smile and sing with me.


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If I die before I learn to speak
Can money pay for all the days
I lived awake
But half asleep?
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Dream the impossible dream. Fight the unbeatable foe. Strive with your last ounce of courage to reach the unreachable star.
-- Anonymous

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I Walk Alone
Here is a remix by DJ PartyBen. I've had the song for awhile and always thought it was a damn good mashup.


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You'll never know why
Your face has haunted me
My very soul has to bleed this time
Another hole in the wall of
My inner defenses
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I think all the boys that write the screaming stuff would write the best love songs because they have the most to hide. The guys that are in the most pain are usually the ones with the biggest hearts.
-- Tori Amos

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Please God, Tell Me That I'm Still Asleep
I havent sang in awhile. I mean really sing. For fun; for the pure hell of it.

I normally sing in the car, but thats been a rarity as of late. I guess that really doesnt matter. It pretty much tortures anyone else that happens to be in the car.

So when I saw that the Barenaked Ladies had this accoustic series of videos, I liked that they had to rely on their singing. Especially since they were doing this in the bathroom.

Ignore the flushing sounds and sing along with me.

Pinch Me by Barenaked Ladies

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You'll never know why
Your face has haunted me
My very soul has to bleed this time
Another hole in the wall of
My inner defenses
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I quit. I give up. Nothing's good enough for anybody else it seems. When I'm all alone its the best way to be. When I'm by myself nobody else can say goodbye. Everything is temporary anyway.
-- Anonymous

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Tergiversate

Bye Bye Beautiful by Nightwish

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You'll never know why
Your face has haunted me
My very soul has to bleed this time
Another hole in the wall of
My inner defenses
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When people hear good music, it makes them homesick for something they never had, and never will have.
-- Edgar Watson Howe

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Morendo
I found this poem by accident and it sort of fit. I cant say how exactly, but it seemed to strike a chord with me. So on that note...

The Music by Kathryn Thompson
I hear the music
The music is playing
The music is soft
The music is now fading
The music is gone
Which means so is my life

No music means no life
The music is gone

Come back to me music
The music is beginning
I have a life
The music is pretty
The music is wonderful

Oh no
The music is fading again
I love the music
The music is gone

Good bye Music
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You'll never know why
Your face has haunted me
My very soul has to bleed this time
Another hole in the wall of
My inner defenses
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Anyone who believes you can't change history has never tried to write his memoirs.
-- David Ben Gurion

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Aim For The Humpback
There is a story goes with this. Its a long story and a lifetime ago.

Umm.. nevermind. Just laugh at this.


moar funny pictures
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You'll never know why
Your face has haunted me
My very soul has to bleed this time
Another hole in the wall of
My inner defenses
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Been... better... off with the... lighter fluid... Head clears for just a minute. Don't want that. Can't help it. How'd I get to this...? Every time I get... lucid... I ask that... Every time the answer gets further away. But I know... I did my usual trick... Took something good and made it rotten...
-- John Constantine from Hellblazer

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Its Not Hard To Fail

Wasted Years by Cold

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You'll never know why
Your face has haunted me
My very soul has to bleed this time
Another hole in the wall of
My inner defenses
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William: I'm dreaming.
Murron: Yes, you are. And you must wake, William.
William: I don't want to wake. I want to stay here with you.
-- from Braveheart

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Black Roses And Hail Marys

Gone Away by The Offspring

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You'll never know why
Your face has haunted me
My very soul has to bleed this time
Another hole in the wall of
My inner defenses
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The world needs anger. The world often continues to allow evil because it isn't angry enough.
-- Bede Jarrett

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I Am Just An Imbecile

Sober by Tool

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You'll never know why
Your face has haunted me
My very soul has to bleed this time
Another hole in the wall of
My inner defenses
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In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends.
-- Martin Luthor King Jr

::: Background Noise :::
Pride (In The Name Of Love) by U2

One man come in the name of love.
One man come and go.
One man come,
He to justify.
One man to overthrow.

In the name of love,
What more in the name of love...

One man caught on a barbed wire fence,
One man he resist,
One man washed on an empty beach.
One man betrayed with a kiss.

In the name of love,
What more in the name of love...

Nobody like you...

Early morning.
April 4.
Shot rings out in the Memphis sky.
Free at last.
They took your life,
They could not take your pride.

In the name of love
What more in the name of love...
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I don't dance any more.
-- from PostSecret

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Come On And Step Up

Break Stuff by Limp Bizkit

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Smile, even if it's a sad smile, because sadder than a sad smile is the sadness of not knowing how to smile.
-- Anonymous

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Cute Wee Bastard

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Maybe I didn't really know you. Maybe you were just a mirage. Maybe the world is full of food and sex and spectacle and we're all just hurling towards an apocalypse. In which case it's not your fault. I've been thinking about all these things and... You're probably standing there monitoring. And one more thing: about the letter. Nuke it. Flame it. Destroy it. It hurts me to know it's out there. Later.
-- Lloyd from Say Anything

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Of All The Fruitless Searches
A lifetime ago I sang this song in a karoke bar. I've always loved the movie and tend to use it here in the blog alot. So when I saw this vid I had to show it. Fairly well done, but the ending could have been a little better. Still, an excellent job done.



I am Lloyd Dobler.
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Joel: I can't remember anything without you.
Clementine: That's sweet, but try.
-- from Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

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Downpour On My Soul

Flood by Jars of Clay

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D'you know the best way to kill a man? To make it hurt the most? To twist the knife in his heart and soul, and laugh when he screams and dies? You put the blade in his best friend's hand and you kill the poor bugger with love.
-- from Hellblazer by Garth Ennis

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I Feel The Dream In Me Expire
Inspiration comes to artists at the strangest times. Why should we average folk be any different?

I always remembered how this video struck a chord with me. Bob Dylan and INXS did videos that used the wordplay and signs, but they didnt impact me as much as this did.

Fine Again by Seether


It was probably the song combined with the video that sticks with me. Who am I to argue? I know nothing.


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Time is the cruelest teacher; first she gives the test, then teaches the lesson.
-- Anonymous

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In The End


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I'm not upset that you lied to me, I'm upset that from now on I can't believe you.
-- Friedrich Nietzsche

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Given Up by Linkin Park

Wake in a sweat again
Another day's been laid to waste
In my disgrace
Stuck in my head again
Feels like I'll never leave this place
There's no escape

I'm my own worst enemy

I've given up
I'm sick of living
Is there nothing you can say?

Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong
With me

I don't know what to take
Thought I was focused but I'm scared
I'm not prepared
I hyperventilate
Looking for help somehow somewhere
And no one cares

I'm my own worst enemy

I've given up
I'm sick of living
Is there nothing you can say

Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong
With me

God!

Put me out of my misery
Put me out of my misery
Put me out of my
Put me out of my fucking misery

I've given up
I'm sick of living
Is there nothing you can say

Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong
With me

Its the original version printed in the Minutes to Midnight booklet.
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Dreams have but one owner at a time. That is why dreamers are lonely.
-- Erma Bombeck

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I Can See It In Your Eyes by Men At Work

By your leave
I think that I'll be going now.
I think I've stayed a little long.
I looked up all my mother's recipes.
I can't think what I did wrong.

We go to a restaurant,
But you don't like wine
You say it's love you want,
But there is no time.
I realize,
I can see it in your eyes.
You keep staring at the floor.

I used to look at your school photographs,
But I don't have them anymore.
I wonder who's in my old college rooms
Or stuck on my old locker door.

I dream of the ships at sea,
On a stormy night
I wish that it was me,
But I wake in fright.
I realize,
I can see it in your eyes.
I've only got myself to blame.

Winter kisses when your lips were blue,
Like chasing wild geese in the snow.
Pressing faces
On the window panes,
But that's a long long time ago.

We go to a restaurant.
You say its love you want.
I realize,
I can see it in your eyes.
You're moving on to something more.
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Paradise. I see flowers from the cottage where I lie.
-- Death Poem by Yaitsu

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The Endless Fields
I had a real hard time with this entry. Part of it is because of the sensative subject, but also because its about someone I only know by a name. I only knew Ashley as a fellow blogger and a mother. Matter of fact, she and her husband had their second child just last month.

So when I was shown this article about her death, I was at a loss of words. Other than giving your sympathy to the family and friends, what else can you say?

You remember the things that made them special. In this case, Ashley would joke about her little sproglets as well as trade barbs with the UF fans since she was a LSU fan. Last night, she was simply estatic as her precious Tigers won the national championship.

And today she's simply gone. Just a void that was just filled yesterday.

I'm not sure there is more that can be said so I toiled to find something that a better wordsmith could say.

From the Declaration Of The Free by Robert G. Ingersoll
Is there beyond the silent night
An endless day?
Is death a door that leads to light?
We cannot say.

God speed, AshPeaMama.
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There are moments in your life when you really miss someone that you want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real.
-- Anonymous

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We All Need One
Someone once told me that these were important. That was a lifetime ago and you dont realize how much you miss them when they arent there any more.


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We're going back to the docks. Someone is in for a fucking smack.
-- Morty from Layer Cake

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Game On
I had got into the Yoshida Brothers music inadvertantly when I first heard them on the Majic Monkey song Change. I even posted the video the other day. And every time I heard it, I kept thinking how their string instruments sounded so damn familiar.

Then it hit me. They are the ones playing the music on the Nintendo Wii commericals.

Sure enough, the main theme is a remix of one of their songs, Kodo (Inside The Sun remix). The downside is that Nintendo shortened the song by 2 minutes so to fit on their first commercial.



There really isnt a good video available for the full version right now. The original song is available, but is missing the dance beat that the remix gives.
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Oh, what memories I'm taking with me.
-- Diane from Torchwood

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Tossed Like A Stone
I've tried to listen to more Lacuna Coil after their cover of Enjoy The Silence. Here is a very haunting song along with a very fitting fan based video. I'm liking the lyrics more and more.

And now the beat inside me
Is a sort of a cold breeze
And I've never had any feeling inside
Ruining me
Bring my body
Carry it into another world
I know I live
But like a stone
I'm falling down

Falling Again by Lacuna Coil

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They may forget what you said, but they will never forget how you made them feel.
-- Carl W. Buechner

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I Can't Change This
I've been trying forever to see if there was a good video for this song. Then a small production company made one and it was absolutely brilliant! They had a decent actor, a good location, and a fantastic ending. The black and white film helped make the mood.

So when I thought I could put it here, they bloody well removed the video!

I was so disappointed because it was so damn good. Worse part is that I have forgotten the name of the production company so I'm pretty much SOL.

Since I started this post, I might as well finish it. This particular video has been around for awhile and is pretty good too.

Congratulations by Blue October


One of these days, I'll actually have some content other than music streams.
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Tristan: You sort of, glitter now. Is that normal?
Yvaine: Lets see if you can work it out for youself. What do stars do?
Tristan: Hmm... Attract trouble?
-- from Stardust

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Catch A Falling Star
If you ever get a chance to watch the movie Stardust, I highly recommend it.

The movie is based off of the book from Neil Gaiman and directed by Matthew Vaughn, who also directed Layer Cake and produced Lock, Stock, and Two Smoking Barrels.

Not only is the movie really good, but despite the low amount of advertising, there were alot of talent in it.

Some of the more well known names in the US are Claire Danes, Robert DeNiro, Michelle Pfiffer, Peter O'Toole, and Ian McKellen.

But there were a ton of notable British actors:
* Sienna Miller (Layer Cake, Keen Eddie)
* Rupert Everett (Shrek 2 & 3)
* Julian Rhind-Tutt (Lara Croft: Tomb Raider, Keen Eddie)
* Adam Fogerty (Snatch)
* Jason Flemyng (Layer Cake, Lock, Stock, and Two Smoking Barrels)
* Sarah Alexander (Coupling)
* Ricky Gervais (The Office, Extras)
* Struan Rodger (Doctor Who)
* David Kelly (Charlie and The Chocolate Factory)
* Dexter Fletcher (Band of Brothers, Layer Cake, Lock, Stock, and Two Smoking Barrels)

Hmm.. Noticing a theme here. Then again, the fact I recognized so many of these people only proves that I have no life whatsoever.

Here is the most excellent song played during the credits.

Rule The World by Take That

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When the music changes, so does the dance.
-- African proverb

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I Need A Change
I was going to use this for the quote, but its abit too big to fit. Considering the thoughts for today, I just felt that it had to be said.

Besides, I couldnt think of anything else and this one is too cool to pass up.

Change is the end result of all true learning. Change involves three things:
First, a dissatisfaction with self - a felt void or need.

Second, a decision to change - to fill the void or need;

And third, a conscious dedication to the process of growth and change - the willful act of making the change; Doing Something!
-- Anonymous

Change by Monkey Majik w the Yoshida Brothers

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What you leave behind is not what is engraved in stone monuments, but what is woven into the lives of others.
-- Pericles

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Flip The Page
Every story has a beginning, middle, and an end.

I'm not quite sure where this story is, but today brings the end of a chapter for alot of people. Its New year's Eve and tomorrow brings in a new year, new hopes, and above all, a new calendar. So lets bring this small piece to an end.

From PostSecret


Happy New Year's everyone. Stay frosty. Stay safe.
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Closing Time by Semisonic
Closing time
Open all the doors
And let you out into the world

Closing time
Turn all of the lights on
Over every boy and every girl

Closing time
One last call for alcohol
So finish your whiskey or beer

Closing time
You don't have to go home
But you can't stay here

I know who I want to take me home
I know who I want to take me home

Closing time
Time for you to go out
To the places you will be from

Closing time
This room won't be open
Till your brothers or your sisters come

So gather up your jackets,
Move it to the exits
I hope you have found a friend

Closing time
Every new beginning comes from
Some other beginning's end

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In the beginning the Universe was created. This has made a lot of people very angry and been widely regarded as a bad move.
-- Douglas Adams

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You've Woken The Demon
Result! Here is another great combination of music with the movie Akira. Its another family oriented song too.

Down With The Sickness by Disturbed

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Be excellent to each other.
-- Bill from Bill & Ted's Excellent Adventure

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I Got A Lump Of Coal

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Memories are meant to fade. They're designed that way for a reason.
-- Mace from Strange Days

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Poverty And Power
I've always loved anime, specifically Akira. You could say I was born from Akira. Enjoy!

O Fortuna Remixed

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All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy. For what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves. We must die to one life before we can enter another.
-- Anatole France

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Should Have Changed My Fucking Lock
I always loved this cover version and never realized there was a video for it. Time to jam.

I Will Survive by Cake

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We all die. The goal isn't to live forever, the goal is to create something that will.
-- Chuck Palahniuk

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Memorial
For Clan Mp...

She Is Gone by David Harkins
You can shed tears that she is gone
Or you can smile because she has lived.

You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
Or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.

Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
Or you can be full of the love you shared.

You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
Or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.

You can remember her only that she is gone,
Or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.

You can cry and close your mind,
Be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
Smile, open your eyes,
Love and go on.
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If you are not too long, I will wait here for you all my life.
-- Oscar Wilde

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Beat Those Little Bastards!
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Thanks to Starfury for this one.
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You have broken what could not be broken! Now, hope is broken.
-- Merlin from Excalibur

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My World Is Half Asleep
Here is a decent video with Christopher Ecceleston as The Doctor. He played the Ninth Doctor, prior to David Tennant.

The song is abit mushy, but what the heck. We all need a bit of mush every so often. Heh.


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Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live.
-- Norman Cousins

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After My Picture Fades

Time After Time by QuietDrive

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There was no reason for me to stay in the real world any longer. In the real world, it didn't matter if I was there or not. When I realized that, I was no longer afraid of losing my body.
-- Chisa from Serial Experiments: Lain

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Without Further Adieu
First and foremost, I need to say Happy Belated Birthday to the brodyman, Starfury. Many more, sir!

I Exist
Serial Experiments: Lain is an anime series that touches on life, existance, and the Wired. What is life? Is it the one we live here or perhaps its the one in a virtual world? And if we were within that virtual world, would we know the difference?

Mad World by Gary Jules

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We could have both gone away. We could have died together. Then at least I would have known I had a place in your heart.
-- Kei from Jin-Roh: The Wolf Brigade

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Just Kill Me, Bill!
I've always liked this song even before it was part of the Halo2 soundtrack. This video seemed so more fitting since its also from Jin-Roh.

Blow Me Away by Breaking Benjamins

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One thing is sure. We have to do something. We have to do the best we know how at the moment. If it doesn't turn out right, we can modify it as we go along.
-- Franklin D. Roosevelt

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Never Forget
Today is the anniversary of the attack on Pearl Harbor. We honour those who lost their lives this day.
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Change of Pace
While I was working on National Novel Month (aka Nanowrimo), I found quotes and poets I never even considered. Granted, I failed Nanowrimo again, but thats another story.

I've always known Henry Rollins as the musician and the actor. He's even got his own television show on the Independant Film Channel. But as a poet, I definately am gaining a new respect for him.

Here was one of my favorites:
My feelings for you shame me into silence. The truth of this and your name will never be revealed.

It is you who has made me realize the failure of my life.

The thought of you fills me with longing and at the same time, a burning humiliation that produces scar tissue and dead brain cells. Your existence mocks me and I am unable to confront this.

You have no idea of any of this. None of this is your fault. It is completely with me.

It is you who makes me see what I really am.

I am weak and out of touch with myself.
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Pain is temporary. It may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year, but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place. If I quit, however, it lasts forever.
-- Lance Armstrong

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We Didnt Start The Bubble
I tried to have at least one entry that didnt have a video attached, but this one is just to funny to pass up.



Thanks Pixelfish!
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You can't be scared of death. When that time comes, it comes.
-- Shawn Taylor, ironically from his last known interview.

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My December
Yet another music video, but a very impressive one.


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