Dont ask. To know about the Giggle Loop is to become part of the Giggle Loop.
-- Jeff from Coupling
::: Tower View :::
There Is Nothing Funny About It
Ever been to hear an Asian pastor give a birthday toast?
It becomes a 10 minute sermon with a large amount of reverence combined with a lot of "Ums" and "Errs." It reminds me of a southern baptist preacher with a heavy accent. He has absolutely no idea what he is discussing and finds himself repeating over and over again...
...with the people around him saying alot of Amen! along the way.
So the most inappropriate thing you can do at a time like that is to laugh. Thus begins the Giggle Loop.
You arent supposed to laugh and you think "Dear God! Dont let me laugh." Then it slightly slips out. A soft chuckle.
So you step away for a moment to prevent everyone from seeing this occurring. When you step back, thinking you are in control, another chuckle slips out.
"Damn it! You arent supposed to laugh!"
...and you step away again to prevent from laughing out aloud...
Then the Ava Maria singing began and the cycle occurs again...
Which explains why I had to stay in the kitchen during the entire toast at my uncle's birthday party last night.
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::: Out In The Yard :::
Super Pacman beats Morales in 10 rounds! This was one excellent fight, unless you are a fan of Erik Morales. Bang! Bang!
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::: Background Noise :::
Every Time You Cry by The Outfield
Every time you cry
I cry just a little bit
Cry just a little bit
When you say good bye
I die just a little bit
Cry just a little bit
Just a little bit more
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* But I'm a creep
* I'm a weirdo
* What the hell am I doing here?
* I dont belong here
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Ray: What is the deal with all the blue balls?
Me: Perhaps its an indication of things to come.
-- from a conversation at work
::: Tower View :::
Pardon Me
Its been that kind of week.
Between the stress, frustration, and just plain exhaustion, I thought I've been hearing things. Apparently not. I've just been taking them out of context; As usual.
"Gee, thats a big one."
"There is no way that will fit in there."
"I like to spread them out for everyone."
"He pulled it out and thats all she wrote.."
"It wouldnt fit in my mouth..."
"Oh, I just kept working on it until it went all the way down..."
I must have lost my mind somewhere along the way.
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::: Out In The Yard :::
Naked woman poses with car at show. Heh, that would make me want to buy it.
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::: Background Noise :::
Enter Sandman by Metallica
Exit light
Enter night
Grain of sand
Take my hand
off to never, never land...
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* But I'm a creep
* I'm a weirdo
* What the hell am I doing here?
* I dont belong here
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Mrs. Beaver: You've been sneaking second helpings, havent you?
Mr. Beaver: Well, you never know if your next meal's going to be your last. Especially with your cooking.
-- from The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe
::: Tower View :::
Oh Yeah? Name Two
Yet again, I've "appropriated" a list from Angelia. Somehow I found this one pretty close to home, but then again, dont I find them all that way? She called it a way to express the inner self. I would say that its a way to put my thoughts down in some kind of order, rather than the blatent rambling I do constantly.
So without further ado...
Two Names You Go By
1. Ken
2. You Bastard! (Thats only if you've been married to me at one point in your life)
Two Parts Of Your Heritage
1. Mom
2. Dad
Two Things That Scare You
1. Dying alone
2. Heights
Two Of Your Everyday Essentials
1. My computer
2. My music
Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now
1. Black ring with red dragon emblem
2. Grey ESPN shirt
Two Of Your Favorite Bands Or Musical Artists (At The Moment)
1. Linkin Park
2. Green Day
Two Of Your Favorite Songs (At The Moment)
1. The Hard Way - Fort Minor
2. Leaving Me Now - Level 42
Two Things You Want In A Relationship (Other Than Real Love)
1. A gentle soul
2. Humour (Laughter is a good one too)
Two Truths
1. The memories flash across my eyes more than ever.
2. I wondered what this world would be if I wasnt in it.
Two Physical Things That Appeal To You
1. Eyes
2. Hair
Two Of Your Favorite Hobbies
1. Bicycling
2. Video games
Two Things You Want Really Badly
1. My soulmate
2. To find somewhere I belong
Two Places You Want To Go On Vacation
1. Ireland
2. Germany
Two Things You Want To Do Before You Die
1. Have my own family
2. Cycle the mountains the Europe
Two Ways That You Are Stereotypically a Dude/Chick
1. I like to ogle females.
2. One word: Pron...
Two Ways You Act Like The Opposite Sex?
1. I like to shop.
2. I am a romantic.
Two Things You Are Thinking About Now
1. Roses
2. Earrings
Two Stores You Shop At Often
1. EB Games
2. Performance Cycling
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::: Out In The Yard :::
Vampire wants to pin Jesse "The Body" Ventura. No biting allowed! Ask Mike Tyson about that...
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::: Background Noise :::
For You by The Outfield
I was wrong
My mistake
I regret
Look at the price I paid
Take these words
Understand
Try to forgive me
I'm a broken man.
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* But I'm a creep
* I'm a weirdo
* What the hell am I doing here?
* I dont belong here
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Now I'm just like the bastards I've hated all me life.
-- John Constantine, Rake at the Gates of Hell
::: Tower View :::
The Have Nots
If I remember correctly, Chloe tagged me with this. So I guess I had best answer.
Four jobs you've never had in your life:
Pimp
Loan Collections
Politician
Race Car Driver (I do this for free!)
Four movies you don't want to watch even once:
The Notebook
Brokeback Mountain
Rumor Has It
Any movie by Michael Moore
Four places you've never lived:
Berlin
Paris
Moscow
Vermont (Does anyone truly live there as opposed to survive?)
Four television shows you've never watched:
Trading Spouse
The OC
24
Desperate Housewives
For places you've never been on vacation:
Dublin
Amsterdam
Portland, Or
Seatlle, Wa
Four of your least favorite foods:
Brussel Sprouts
Blood pudding
Goat
Asparagus
Four places you'd rather not be:
The office (lately)
Jail
Africa
Miami, Fl (I'm Asian, damn it! Not cuban!)
Four albums (cds) you can live without:
(with apologies to L&L...)
Anything by Rascal Flats
Anything by Travis Tritt
Anything with the words Honky Tonk in it...
Anything by Kayne West (jackass..)
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::: Out In The Yard :::
Super Saiyans battle with Linkin Park. For the Dragonball Z fans...
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The Asian Backstreet Boys strike again. I really need to find out who their choreographer is...
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This gives a new meaning to girls on film. I'm all for girl on girl action, but damn...
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There are times when doing the treadmill is just too much. Ummm... Ow...
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::: Background Noise :::
Natural One by Folk Implosion
I'm the one
Natural one
Take it easy
We can take it inside
I can have it
Because I act like I love it
Its a matter of pride
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* But I'm a creep
* I'm a weirdo
* What the hell am I doing here?
* I dont belong here
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Dont take any sh*t from anybody!
-- Billy Joel
::: Tower View :::
The First Time
No matter how old we are, we always remember that first time. It was an event in our lifetime that impacted how we handled things in the future. And for me, that time has occurred with Angelia.
Why not? After all, I've been accused of having something for her. So it seems fitting that she be my first.
...To have filled out my Comments section...
I didnt even know I had a comments section! I finally got a chance to work on the blog when I stumbled upon a comment Angelia entered last month (and a really good one I might add). After going thru a few other posts, I discovered she had been putting other comments out into the world.
So I owe you an apology, Angelia. I wasnt ignoring you, dear one. Things just happened so quickly that it was over before I knew what to do. Was it good for you as it was for me? It'll get better with more experience, I swear.
With that being said, I've updated the blog slightly for comments and such.
Now get your minds out of the gutter. Grab mine while you are there, please.
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Link Lists
1) My copy of Post Secret finally came in. Its a great book and I highly recommend it.
2) Its funny see the video for All American Rejects song Dirty Little Secrets. They used cards from Post Secret as part of the video.
3) I was recently talked into the going to the Billy Joel concert. Despite his age, the show was still pretty good. The man can rock.
4) It was inspiring hearing the entire arena sing Piano Man with the band. A moment of joy was felt by all.
5) I could really use a drink right now.
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::: Out In The Yard :::
The AVN Pron Awards are almost as big as the Oscars nowadays. And where else can you have a catagory like Best Actress In A Double Penetration?
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::: Background Noise :::
Shout 2000 by Disturbed
Shout
Shout
Let it all out
These are the things that I can do without
Come on
I'm talking to you
So come on...
This was the first time I heard this cover and I have to admit, its pretty damn good.
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* But I'm a creep
* I'm a weirdo
* What the hell am I doing here?
* I dont belong here
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* Click the time below to post comments
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Football Is an honest game. It's true to life . It's a game about sharing. Football is a team game. So is life.
-- Joe Namath
::: Tower View :::
Latest Pictorial
I've finally gotten around to offloading the pictures from the holidays. Aye, I know. I'm a lazy sod.
So here are some of my favorites...
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::: Out In The Yard :::
The Asian version of the Backstreet Boys have arrived. I've missed my calling.
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The Wulin Warriors are coming!. I wanted to say Thunderbirds are go!, but realized I was in the wrong country. (hat tip: Puppet Vision)
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GLAAD mad at bad review of dumb movie. Your opinion is very important to us. Unless we dont like comments, then of which, we will collect your f%^king head.
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::: Background Noise :::
Good Riddance (Time Of Your Life) by Green Day
So take the photographs
And still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf
In good health and good time
Tattoos of memories
And dead skin on trial
For what it's worth
It was worth all the while
Its something unpredictable
But in the end its right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
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* But I'm a creep
* I'm a weirdo
* What the hell am I doing here?
* I dont belong here
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Have the courage to live. Anyone can die.
-- Robert Cody
::: Tower View :::
You've Got Personality
Hat tip to Fury
| Your Personality Is |
You are sensible, down to earth, and goal oriented. Bottom line, you are good at playing by the rules. You tend to be dominant - and you are a natural leader. You are interested in rules and order. Morals are important to you. A hard worker, you give your all at whatever you do. You're very serious, and people often tell you to lighten up. In love, you tend to take things carefully and slowly. At work, you are suited to almost any career - but you excel in leadership positions. With others, you tend to be polite and formal. As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive. You take good care of yourself. On weekends, you tend to like to do organized activities. In fact, you often organize them! |
They forgot to include that I'm a complete bastard.
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::: Out In The Yard :::
Police arrest robber with help from his license plate. You have to be a frigging idiot when your plate says FINDME
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::: Background Noise :::
Good Is Good by Sheryl Crow
I dont hold no mystery
But I can show you how to turn the key
Cause all I know is where I started
So downhearted
And thats not where you want to be
And everytime you hear the rolling thunder
You turn around before the lightening strikes
And you could find a rock to crawl right under
If all your good times pass you by
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* But I'm a creep
* I'm a weirdo
* What the hell am I doing here?
* I dont belong here
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Hello, you've reached me. If you don't know who me is, you've dialed the wrong number.
-- From an answering machine message
::: Tower View :::
A List By Any Other Name
Once again, I'm blaming Angelia for this because she came up with a great idea. She's started another project based on lists. Lists of anything and everything that we could come up with. Its a really interesting concept...
Then I really liked the first one she came up with so I had to respond.
List all the greetings you've used to answer the telephone
- Hi. Now you say something.
- Good morning. Information Systems. This is Ken. What did you break?
- Mike's Mortuary. You stab em, we slab em.
- Yallo?!
- Hm?
- yes?
- What?!
- Mushimushi!
- Konichi wa!
- Pappa John's Pizza. We're abit busy at the moment. Please hold...
- Front desk. How may I direct your call?
- Hi, This is the Game Store. My name is Ken. No we dont have any Super Ninetendos left. Now how may help you?
So I sent her a suggestion and here is what I came up with...
List all unessential items sitting on your desk at the moment
- The snail mail for the past month
- Stack of reciepts
- Non-functional clock
- A ton of unopened software
- Photo negatives
- Used gift card to Ted's Montana Grill
- A twist tie for a loaf of bread
- The bottle cap to a Dasani bottle
- Empty cd jewel cases
- Empty cd paper sleeves
- The broken ear piece to an old pair of eyeglasses
- Lens cleaning cloth
- Two empty soda cans
- Bottle of aspirin
- A coaches' whistle
- A scrunchy
- A LiveStrong bracelet
- Stack of backup dvds *cough*
- Toy Dragon
- Sun visor
- Stack of arcade tokens
- Empty MP3 player case
- Two tubes of Anbesol
- Box of Kleenex
- Sports watch with semi-broken strap
- Installation instructions for bicycle cyclometer
- Various video game manuals
- A City of Heroes playing card. ("Statesman" to be specific
- Phone battery that doesnt fit any of my phones
- 25 foot USB cable still in it package and unopened
- Empty case to flash card
Damn, I'm a frigging pack rat... So what is on your desk?
By the way, Angelia, I cant leave comments on your new blog. Stupid Xanga.
Anyways, we really need to talk. Garter strap, brownies, and RPG materials?! What exactly were you doing last night, hm? LOL...
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::: Out In The Yard :::
Man wounded while playing with handgun in bathroom. Most men prefer to play with their own weapon while in the bathroom.
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::: Background Noise :::
Hash Pipe by Weezer
Come on and kick me
You've got your problems
I've got my ass wide
You've got your big G's
I've got my hash pipe
There is something severely wrong with those lyrics...
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* But I'm a creep
* I'm a weirdo
* What the hell am I doing here?
* I dont belong here
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Men like dogs because we always need a friend who is dumber than we are. Women would like dogs, but they've already got men.
-- Bill Engvall
::: Tower View :::
This Is Happy?
Over the holidays, Adnil sent out pictures of the latest addition to her family; a wee pug pup. Apparently, he is really happy when he is in the garden. 
Damn. If this is happy, I would hate to see him when he's pissed.
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::: Out In The Yard :::
Now you too can sleep with Elliot Stabler. I would have preferred Olivia Benson myself.. heh... (hat tip: Gizmodo)
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::: Background Noise :::
Then The Morning Comes by Smash Mouth
The way that you are
Its just the way that you talk
Like it aint no thing
And every single day is
Just a fling
Then the morning comes
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* But I'm a creep
* I'm a weirdo
* What the hell am I doing here?
* I dont belong here
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New Year's Eve, where auld acquaintance be forgot. Unless, of course, those tests come back positive
-- Jay Leno
::: Tower View :::
Happy New Year To All
And to all a good night. Wait.. that didnt really belong there, did it?
Suffice it to say, here's hoping that your new year is safe.
And not to brag or anything, but here is a picture of the some slut I picked up. At least cleanliness wasnt an issue. Heh... 
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::: Out In The Yard :::
Flutie finds the lost art of the drop kick. Doug just proves that we are as young as we feel.
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::: Background Noise :::
After The Storm by The Outfield
After the hurt
Has gone away
Oh will we feel the pain
After the storm
Begins to turn
Oh will we ever learn
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* But I'm a creep
* I'm a weirdo
* What the hell am I doing here?
* I dont belong here
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Allie: Apparently, I'm not a master baster...
Me: I bet your husband doesnt think that!
-- from a conversation at lunch
::: Tower View :::
Tagged And Bagged
This is Angelique's fault. She tagged me for the game and I'm honour-bound to respond. Granted, I dont have comments so this will get a little wierd.
These are the rules of the game: You must write a journal entry listing those weirdnesses you possess ~ as well as the rules of the game. Then, you select five people to tag and link their names/blogs in your entry. Go to their journals and leave a comment informing them they have been tagged by you and to read your journal to see in what way they have been nailed! Those five then MUST write an entry listing their weird habits and tag an additional five people.
Aye.. like that is going to happen. Heh.
So here at least are my five wierdest habits:
1. Whenever I am in a car, I have the tendency to sing. It doesnt matter if I'm driving or not, if I know the song, I'll sing. Many times my friends have been the poor victims of my voice.
2. I laugh abit too loudly to the point of annoyance.
3. Ironically enough, like Angelique, I try not to wear yellow unless its a cycling jersey. I've been tol that it makes me look abit too yellow. This must be due to our heritage.
4. Whenever I get irritated, I tend to self-righteous. Which probably explains my bouts of road rage...
5. I'm the one that people hate while in the movie theater because I'll let comments slip out... on purpose. For example, thrity minutes into The Sixth Sense, I had whispered abit too loudly "I bet he's dead too. He keeps wearing the same clothes over and over again."
Hmmm.. I think my five victims will be:
Fury - it'll be fun
Ric - it'll give him something to do
Bobby - it'll be a little different for him
Chloe - she's done these before...sort of...
Anna - because I still blame her for the Chewbacca thing. Heh.
Of course, it'll be up to them to actually do this, but for now... TAG! YOU'RE IT!
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Watching A Little TV
Jay from the office showed us the way Ping Pong should be played. Matrix style!
So I got nosey and started looking at the other videos. The ones I found were pretty frigging funny...
Here is another reminder that the Internet is for porn, with a little help from World of Warcraft.
This one is of the Japanese pop group, Morning Musume playing Fear Factor with a lizard. I still have no idea what the hell is on their head.
Also from Japan comes the story of the Freshmen out to stop an evil plot to destroy the world. But does the villan really know who he is?
And finally, here is acapella at its best. I have a feeling that only the old time video game players will get the jokes, but its still pretty good. It came out during the summer and is definately one of the best videos this year.
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::: Out In The Yard :::
The latest in car alarms: Big Ben. Get away from the car, motherf**ker!
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::: Background Noise :::
Big Time by Peter Gabriel
I've had enough
I'm getting out
To the city
The big big city
I'll be a big noise
With all the big boys
There's so much stuff I will own
And I will pray
To a big god
As I kneel in the big church
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* But I'm a creep
* I'm a weirdo
* What the hell am I doing here?
* I dont belong here
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When I was a kid I used to pray every night for a new bicycle. Then I realised that the Lord doesnt work that way so I stole one and asked Him to forgive me. --
-- Emo Philips
::: Tower View :::
Want A Piece?
You scored 3 Power-Finesse, 3 Leader-Follower, 1 Unique-Ordinary, and 2 Offense-Defense!
You are devoted to the cause, and you protect the interests of the Black team. You will often be working behind the scenes, protecting even the lowliest pawn. However, you are impossible to ignore, since at any moment you could strike like the black widow. It is more in your nature to allow your opponent to make a foolish mistake that you exploit, than it is for you to try and force an aggressive victory for your team.
The What Chess Piece Are You Test
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::: Out In The Yard :::
Here is the story of Fred The Baker. We'll always know when its time to make the doughnuts.
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Boyfriend shoves cell phone down girlfriend's throat. Thats one way to check her gag reflex.
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::: Background Noise :::
First I'm Gonna Crawl by DMX
Every day we live and learn
Take it step by step
And we create our own path
Until there's no life left
I hold my death off
For as long as I can
Knowing my man
Is plotting with the chrome in his hand
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* But I'm a creep
* I'm a weirdo
* What the hell am I doing here?
* I dont belong here
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Why is Christmas just like a day at the office? You do all the work and the fat guy with the suit gets all the credit.
-- Anonymous
::: Tower View :::
Its Santa Day!
From Clan Shima to you and yours, have a Merry Christmas! Stay safe!
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* Where are you
* And I'm so sorry
* I cannot sleep
* I cannot dream tonight
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You wanna be Chinese, you got to eat the nasty stuff.
-- Nick Chen from The Corruptor
::: Tower View :::
Reminders Of Hospital Food
Since I'm from Asian heritage, its not uncommon for me to see strange looking food. Its actually bit expected. Whenever I took my Caucasian friends to a gathering, I always told them that if they couldnt recognize it, then dont eat it. It would be hard enough to explain that "Blood pudding" really wasnt made out of blood, although it did look like it.
Robbie and Jay talked me into going to lunch to a local Indian buffet place. Not a Native American restaurant, mind you, but as in India.
I've been there before and normally can identify the food on the line. I guess today was a special occasion because the only thing I could recognize was the white rice.
There was extremely green stuff followed by some really, really yellow stuff. Then there was the yellow and white stuff that someone mentioned as to having yogurt in it. Oh, and there was the deep red stuff that apparently was some kind of goat mixture.
I think the cook was offended when I asked what part of the goat they used for that concoction.
Suffice it to say, the rice and the items identified as chicken made it to the plate.
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Letter To The Office
It was time for the annual message to the team at the office so here is what I sent.
As another year will shortly be a memory, my heartfelt appreciation goes out to all of you who have taken the time and trouble to send me forwarded email over the past 12 months. Thank you for making me feel safe, secure, blessed, and wealthy.
Extra thanks for the ones that I have to open 15 times to get to the message.
Special thanks to whomever sent me the one about rat droppings in the glue on envelopes because I now have to go get a wet towel every time I need to seal an envelope.
Also, I scrub the top of every can I open for the same reason. Because of your concern, I no longer drink Coca Cola because it can remove toilet stains.
I no longer drink Pepsi, or Dr Pepper, since the people who make these products are atheists who won't put "Under God" on their cans.
I no longer use Saran wrap in the microwave because it causes cancer.
I no longer check the coin return on pay phones because I could be pricked with a needle infected with AIDS.
I no longer use cancer-causing deodorants even though I smell like a water buffalo on a hot day.
I no longer go to shopping malls because someone might drug me with a perfume sample and rob me.
I no longer receive packages from, nor send packages by UPS or FedEx since they are actually Al Qaeda in disguise.
I no longer answer the phone because someone will ask me to dial a number for which I will get a phone bill with calls to Jamaica, Uganda, Singapore, and Uzbekistan.
I no longer eat KFC, because their "chickens" are actually horrible mutant freaks with no eyes or feathers.
I no longer have any sneakers, but that will change once I receive my free replacement pair from Nike.
I no longer have to buy expensive cookies from Neiman Marcus, since I now have their recipe.
I no longer worry about my soul, because at last count I have 363,214 angels looking out for me.
I have learned that God only answers my prayers if I forward an e-mail to seven of my friends, stand on my head, and make a wish within five minutes.
I no longer have any savings, because I gave it to a sick girl who is about to die in the hospital (for the 1,387,258th time).
I no longer have any money at all, but that will change once I receive the $15,000 that Microsoft and AOL are sending me for participating in their special email program.
Have a Merry Christmas and lets be careful out there.
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::: Out In The Yard :::
The top 30 facts about how Chuck Norris can kick your arse. The beatings will continue until morale improves. (hat tip: Robbie)
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::: Background Noise :::
Never Going To Stop by Alter Bridge
On this day
I see clearly
Everything has come to life
In a place
In a broken dream
And we'll leave it all behind
On this day
Its so real to me
Everything has come to life
Another chance to chase a dream
Another chance to feel
Chance to feel alive
Dedicated to Angelia. Check out her very well written entry. Oh, and the picture is good too.
*cough cough* Hehehe...
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* Where are you
* And I'm so sorry
* I cannot sleep
* I cannot dream tonight
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Dont worry about life. You arent going to survive it anyway.
-- Anonymous saying
::: Tower View :::
Phone Etiquette
I guess when we are having a bad day, we pass it on to others via electronic means. As I was sitting in the office, the phone rings and the conversation goes on like this:
Me: Information Delivery Systems, this is Ken. How can I help you?
Caller: Umm... yeah, someone gave this number to call.
Me: Pardon?
Caller: Umm... someone named Ken Shima gave this number to call. Is this Ken?
Me: I'm sorry. May I ask who is calling?
Caller: Yeah, this is Diane. Is this Ken?
Me: May I ask what is about?
Caller: Is this Ken?
Me: May I ask what is about?
Caller: Well, this is Diane.
Me: And?
Caller: I was told to call this number.
Me: Ok...
Caller: Well, I'm Diane. Is this the right number?
Me: Yes it is. May I ask what this pertains to?
Caller: Ken had ordered this book and its on backorder.
Me: Ah ha! I got it! You're from the bookstore.
Caller: Oh.. yeah.. I'm from the bookstore. The warehouse called and said that your book is on backorder. It probably wont be in for at least three weeks.
I guess I could have abit kinder, but how hard would have it been to say "Hi, I'm from the bookstore and your book is on back order?" Instead, I had to go thru several minutes wondering if the IRS was coming after me.
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::: Out In The Yard :::
Best Buy has a password in order to buy the Xbox 360. Frig that. I'll go to Circuit City who will be more than happy to take my money. (hat tip: Gizmodo)
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::: Background Noise :::
Sleeping Satellite by Tasmin Archer
I blame you for the moonlit sky
And the dream that died
With the eagles' flight
I blame you for the moonlit nights
When I wonder why
Are the seas still dry?
Dont blame this sleeping satellite
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* Where are you
* And I'm so sorry
* I cannot sleep
* I cannot dream tonight
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The big question to ask when it comes to relationships is do you want to be lonely or annoyed?
-- Richard Jeni
::: Tower View :::
One More For The Spotlight
I was going to add Chloe to the sidebar, but then she beat me to the punch and added me to her blog.
I like her personal style of writing and insight. She's not as wild as many of the others that I read; more down to Earth. And quite frankly, we all need that kind of person in our lives.
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A Robert Frost Moment
My mood of recent times dictated that I put this out there...
Fire And Ice by Robert Frost
Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I've tasted of desire
I hold with those who favour fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.
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::: Out In The Yard :::
Ionize your clothes clean. Which probably doesnt do a darn thing for the smell. Heh...
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::: Background Noise :::
Believe Me by Fort Minor
I used to have a little bit of a plan
Used to
Have a concept of where I stand
But that concept slipped right out of my hands
Now I don't really even know who I am
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* Where are you
* And I'm so sorry
* I cannot sleep
* I cannot dream tonight
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Give blood and get a hummer!
-- from a poster hanging at the gym
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Yet More Randomness
1. Finally! A title longer than two words.
2. Cache (In English, Hidden) looks like a damn good movie. What would you do when videos of you and your family suddenly began appearing at your doorstep? Check out the site here.
3. You tend to get worried when you are walking out of the men's room and your director is walking in. As you pass by, he mentions "Hey Ken! I heard about your comment at the meeting the other day..."
4. Weezer's frontman has been celibate for two years. Hell, a few folks I know can break that record. And it wasnt even their choice. *cough Doombringer cough*
5. Second Life is just as fun as The Sims2 and can be just as addicting.
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::: Out In The Yard :::
Man runs marathons for a living. Damn, I have enough problems just trying to walk to the car.
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::: Background Noise :::
Still by Alanis Morissette
I am the harm which you inflict.
I am your brilliance and frustration.
I am the nuclear bombs if they're to hit.
I am your immaturity and your indignance.
I am your misfits and your praised.
I am your doubt and your conviction.
I am your charity and your rape.
I am your grasping and expectation.
I see you averting your glances.
I see you cheering on the war.
I see you ignoring your children,
And I love you still.
From the Dogma soundtrack...
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* Where are you
* And I'm so sorry
* I cannot sleep
* I cannot dream tonight
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My dad once told me that if I didnt shape up, he would make me pick my switch. I told him that if he didnt shape up that I would make him pick his nursing home.
-- Tim Hester
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Brain Damage
Sleep is a luxury that I dont have lately. Its really self-induced, probably because I dont want to dream. I dont want to see the memories and visions that flash in my eyes. And as much as I try to block them out, they come back even more fierce than before.
Years of training to see with my mind's eye come back to haunt me. Now I cant turn it off.
So then this comes to mind:
How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd;
Its from the poem Eloisa to Abelard by Alexander Pope and the inspiration for the movie Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind (ironically enough).
What if we could erase those memories that hurt us the most? Would we do it? Should we do it? Would we lose those things that define who we are?
...And would it be worth it?
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::: Out In The Yard :::
Here is Jenna's poem about needing help. This is such a good one that I had to mark it.
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::: Background Noise :::
Playground by The Outfield
I'm alone and
I'm lost in this playground
The lights are down on me
All alone and
Afraid in this playground
The city never sleeps
If you listen you won't understand
So confused I don't know where I am
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* Where are you
* And I'm so sorry
* I cannot sleep
* I cannot dream tonight
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I drink to stay warm and to kill few selected memories
-- Conor Oberst
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Installed Memory
I had seen this on Chloe's and The Mrs' blogs. Seems like an interesting concept.
If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, (even if we don't speak often) please post a comment with a COMPLETELY MADE UP AND FICTIONAL memory of you and me. It can be anything you want - good or bad - BUT IT HAS TO BE FAKE.When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people DON'T ACTUALLY remember about you!
So I figured, what the hell...
There was that time when we were having dinner at the Cheesecake Factory. You were ticked because the waiter, who made it apparent that he was gay, kept flirting with me. You werent sure if you were mad because you as a female should feel insulted or if it was another wait staff member hitting on me. You tolerated the waitresses, but now a waiter?
Good thing I dont have comments here. This should break the chain.
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::: Out In The Yard :::
Merry Christmas from Chewbacca. Somehow this is wrong. I dont know how, but it is. (blame: Anna)
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::: Background Noise :::
Only A Memory by The Smithereens
Why should it matter if I cry
I sit around and wonder why
Now I feel much too weak to live
And I've got nothing left to give
Now it's only a memory
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* What do you do
* When somebody lets you down
* And you want to say something
* But you can’t cause they're not around
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Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live.
-- Norman Cousins
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Brash Statements
I've been a little testy lately to say the least. Everyone at the office has noticed, but have been kind enough not to press the issue or have given me some space, especially when many of my conversations have been like these:
Mike: I think we have to get that documentation in by today.
Me: F*ck it. It'll get there when it gets there.
Patty: The Coffee Club needs decaf.
Me: That isnt all you f*ckers need.
Aimee: We can work on this tomorrow. You are going to be here, right?
Me: I dont know. You f*ckers are getting on my nerves.
Deedra: What about you Ken? What personal goals do you have for next year?
Me: I really need to spend some time out on the range.
Deedra: Oh? The golf range?
Me: Oh no. The firing range. I've got several pieces that really need to be used. And very soon.
I probably shouldnt have made that last comment in front of the Human Resources representative. Or even my manager as a matter of fact.
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::: Out In The Yard :::
Lance going to Italian court for defamation. "Wah! I couldnt beat him in the Tour De France. Then he chased me down and called me mean names. Sue him! Wah!"
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Your latest movie critics: Statler & Waldorf from The Muppet Show. And these guys should know. They've been in the business since the dinosaur age. (hat tip: Puppetvision)
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Krwlng by Linkin Park
This lack of self-control
I fear is never ending
Controlling
I cant seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
Without a sense
Of confidence
I’m convinced
Ihat there is just too much pressure to take
I’ve felt this way before
So insecure
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* What do you do
* When somebody lets you down
* And you want to say something
* But you can’t cause they're not around
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The Steward
